gurl-in-e-middle

2009-03-18T23:44:00.006+08:00

I knew u lied 2 me..

Do u think dat I'd b'lieve u over my own FREN whom I've known fer almost 10yrs oready?! n who's oso incapable of lies w/o tellin me e whole truth in e end..I seriously duno wad 2sae 2u anymre..I didnt tot dat u'd b s dispicable s 2 resort 2LYING! I dun think I'd wan2 b'lieve u eva again! If u DARED 2LIE 2me, I wonder who else hav u LIED 2..!I kno dat ppl hav reasons fer lying in life, n I wonder wad's urs..bt up till nw I cnt think of any reasons y u'd so such a thing when u kno I hav e EVDENCE w/me..I'm w8in fer sme xplaination if ur willin 2offer any..Bt I doubt dat U wld even xplain urself, cos 2u, u oways think u're e rite 1..so I juz realli realli hope dat u cn pls, pls..proof me wrong..

Anthr horrible day!!

2009-03-17T23:13:00.004+08:00

O.m.G! anthr horrible dae fer me (n oso e same fer certain ppl s well??)..I was seriously soo pissed abt tis prsn (nt gona mention names nor wad e prsn has actually done..) again..he/she hav realli done it tis tym! Nt onli did he/she showed his/her ULTIMATE BOSSINESS, bt he/she oso SCOLDED my fren (who I FEEL wasnt in e wrong) n made her AFRAID 2talk 2me again! I duno wheather dat was e intention, bt I felt dat it was!! If he/she dosent wan me 2talk, juz sae lahx!! y e hell cn he/she talk 2 his/her fren while I CNT!! Is dat xcuse cos I HAVE NT completed my job? Well if dats so, den lemme sae tis:" Its cos u KEEP pushin mre n mre wrk into my hands!! Bossing me 2complete tis n dat while U urslef run off 2do wadeva u wish n ACT BZ!!" Well i onli hav 1msg 2u: "F* off man!" Oh, I'm sry I dun think I shld add in e 'man' in e last part cos I dun think ur even a HUMAN BEING! Ur juz bein an A**-H*le..who dun hav control over ur own life n is juz wishin 2control evry1 else's!!!!!!

I kno I shldnt b soo mean, n sae all those thins, bt well nw dat u kno my perception of u I hope u gt ur priorities str8 cos frm nw on my ans 2all ur qns n requests will b a plain n str8: 'NO!'..n e onli othertymes dat I wun sae dat wrd is cos I HAV 2sae yes or I juz dun wish 2c u crash n burn..So dun take me bein nice s me bein a prsn dat u cn push-over..Dats wad u wan isnt it? Fer ppl 2 F* u up in ur face rite? 4ppl 2speak up deir minds rite 2ur face rite? Well I'm nt soo mean s 2do dat, cos I dun wish 2hear u defendin ur bloody-self anymre, nor do I wish 2hear u gimme all e pathetic reasons y u wun change ur STINKIN ATTITUDE.. Cos here's a little tip fer U: "altho u mayb successful in wadeva u do nw(due 2all ur xperience n evrythin)..bt if u go on lidat in life u wun go far.."

If u wish 2take my feelins n wadeva i sae s bullsh*t den go ahead..Cos u oways do anywae rite? 2u onli SELECTED ppl in ur life r impt..So go ahead n cont. livin ur life e wae u do nw I juz wan2 c hw far den u'll strt 2sink..

p.s.I'm NT bein MEAN here, I'm juz speakin out my mind (w/o any filters)..juz lik u wanted me 2..

School Holidays!! ~March 2009

2009-03-16T00:00:00.004+08:00

Finally its skool holidays le!!^^ I'm soo happi cos my baby dear oso holiday le, so dat means we cn hang out mre b4 my skool strts 2 in April..lol..Um..bt bad news is baby sae 2me dat he wans 2wrk mre durin tis holii, cos he's runnin low on cash..I think it has smth 2do w/me..lol..ooopss..sry baby fer spendin ur money..hehe..
Baby oso told me dat he wan2 do alota thins w/me durin tis holii..He sae he wan2 go Sci Centre, Discovery Centre, Bird Park, Zoo, Sentosa, Dwn-town East, Wild-wild-wet..etc..Dats y he sae he wan2 go wrk gt e money den we cn go enjoy 2getha..hahax.."So much 2do, So little tym"..lol..

Anywae fer 2dae I woke damn early n folo-ed my daddy 2pay my skool fees..e amount we initaially had 2pay was abt $1000++/-.. so me n my dad went 2e CPF board in JE 2reg fer e financial assistance scheme, so ma fan lohx..Bt @least nw my dad onli nids 2fork out $170/-.. *Phew..cos I cnt bear 2c my b'loved daddy payin soo much fer my fees, its nt s tho we're rich, so yea ^^..
After dat dad wanted 2cook a special dinner (my dad's e best cook in e world..lol..) fer evry1, so I acc him 2Jp Fairprice Xtra..Dats where I 'bumped' into Shu Yi..She was juz cmin bak frm SP n she juz bought her laptop..I felt envious @dat tym lohx..Haix, hw i wish i cld gt a new 1..Bt my course didnt require me 2use 1..instead I'm supposed 2purchase a PDA frm skool, so currently I'm savin my pays fer dat..hehe..Tho I muz sae dat a PDA is way cheaper den a laptop..lol..

After e groceries shoppin i helped dad carry all e stuffs hme den left him 2e preperations n went 2mit baby @900+ e central dere..I had 2mit baby cos he juz finished his SC mitin fer e dae (he strted early in e morn n e mitin onli ended @4pm lidat..e poor thing..), n he didnt even had his lunch!! So I had 2acc baby 2make sure he ate smth..He cn tell me dat he's hungry bt he refuse 2go n eat, in fear of ruinin his appitite fer dinner..-.-..Bt in e end we still ate @KFC..n lik oways, baby lik 2'force-feed' me when I'm nt hungry..so we ended up sharin a meal n tis tym it was my turn 2force feed baby e shrooms-burger n my chicken..cos he refused 2eat anythin else other den e reg. coleslaw he gt..-.-..lol.. In e end, when I went hme I was 2full 2eat any of dad's cookin =((.. n he looked rather sad oso..haix..(all baby's fault =p)..so I promised dat I'll eat evrythin tml..Which I did=))

Sat 14, b'cmes my Fri 13..

2009-03-14T12:45:00.003+08:00

It is realli a shocker fer me dat Fri e 13th cld go by soo smoothly, bt on e foloin day I had 2encounter such an unfortunate event..

I'm soo pissed dat I even let such a prsn n situaton gt2 my head!! S usual, I dun wan2 point fingers nor do I wan2 mention names..Bt i realli wish 2share tis..I kno I'm nt e type of prsn dat blows up easily, nor m I e type of prsn who speaks 100% of my mind..cos I kno dat if I do, dat'll b juz plain rude of me(trust me, u wldnt wan me 2b DAT prsn)..n 2dae was juz 1of e xception, mayb cos I was PMSin 2dae (n dats true), bt I b'lieve dat prsn oso has hav 2kno dat he/she cnt juz push evry1/any1 arnd juz cos he/she liks it! If u wan me 2do anythin I'm oways game fer it, dats me..Bt u oso gotta kno ur limits!.. I kno we're all humans here n no1's perfect n dat inclds me..So if I cn b soo understandin, y cnt u?!

When u make a mistake stop tryin 2cover it up by makin me take e fall fer u..U kno I dun wrk well under fire, so y do u still create these situations fer me?Do u wish fer me 2suffer? I kno I'm nt s professional nor do I hav any xperience 2bak me up in tis phase of life, so GUIDE me instead of BOSSING me arnd..U might think tis is e way 2go abt doin thins in tis industry, bt I'm tellin u dat NO1 i kno liks e way u do thins..esp e BOSSY part..I cnt speak completely fer evry1, bt I cn say dat frankly, I DUN LIK IT! who in e rite mind wld lik 2b talked 2in tis kinda manner?..wad'u think I m??? ur employee?! ur servants?!.. Well UR WRONG!! cos here's a news flash fer ya:" I DUN WRK FER U!!" Even my own boss dun talk 2me or treat me e wae u do..evern if he does he has MRE rite den u eva will hav..So wake up n smell e 1st stench of reality here, cos u're seriously bein nth bt a B!TCH in my eyes..U might lik it bt i dun..So UNLESS u cn talk 2me properly n nt sme dog u THINK u own, den cme talk 2me..Otherwise juz F* off, cos even tho I might hav my mother's temp (I cnt b'lieve U even hav e GUTS 2sae such an insultin thin), bt @least I'm nt an A** lik U!!

A day out w/frenz n ltr w/baby

2009-03-13T21:51:00.006+08:00

Hmmm..2dae was nth much on my agenda..Juz kinda went JP w/Shu Yi early in e morn fer sme shoppin..Yea,we went 2pay Shu Yi's skool fees @e Standard Charted Bank sme where arnd Taman Jurong dere..den headed 2 JP fer sme shoppin in prep. when skool re-opens in April..We strted out shoe shoppin,den went fer brunch @Delifrance..norm, Delifrance is v.ex, bt since dey were currently havin tis offer on deir meals Shu Yi suggested 2dine in dere..Hmmm..e food is nt bad, I went fer e Black Pepper Steak n Shu Yi opted fer e Fish..Overall e service is comparable w/ph tho.. After brunch me n Shu Yi continued w/our shoppin n oso went fer alittle pamperin session @Herb De Orient in JP2..I went fer e eyebrow shappin session,while Shu Yi went n gt a pedicure (She chose tis super stricking pink, which ended up makin her feet look realli spunky..lol..sooo unlike her..) In total, I onli managed 2gt myself a realli nice pair of ballet flats..while Shu Yi, spent her money on a pair of shoes n a bunch of clothes..hahax..She's realli a shopp-a-holic..Compared w/her, I onli spent $20 on shoppin itself,n $10 on food..while she spent a whoppin $50 on her stuffs (n tis is xcludin her meal!!)

After dat (since Shu Yi had 2head hme early) I met up w/baby dear..He had juz finish his SC mitin n plus he nvr had lunch yt, so I had 2mit up w/him 2make sure he eat..headed dwn 2ph 4dear's lunch tym..He's soo funny de, wheneva he's hungry,he wun eat..Instead, he'll keep feedin me de..its s tho e food goin into my mouth will satisfy HIS hunger..lol..Since I oready had my lunch I wasnt dat hungry,bt dear, oways havin e same funny habit, ordered me sme stuffs 2eat..haix..I was s full s hell..while we were eatin, Lava reminded of our movie d8 ltr dat nite..(its nt wad u think ok..we were goin out s frenz, n plus its w/a grp of frenz..^^) After dear's lunch we walked abt JP fer awhile n finalised my shoppin by gttin tis realli kool shirt which was blue in colour (I mentioned e colour cos I dun realli own any blue shirt, xcept fer my sec skool house tee..lol)

Went hme fer awhile 2finish up my chores den dressed up n headed 2jp 2mit Lava n Shida, who was dinnin in @ph..den we went 2catch: Dragonball Evolution..e show was amazin if nt fer e fact dat e theatre was soo packed dat we ended up havin 2seat 3rd row frm e screen..We wld've caught e ltr show, bt i promised dear dat I'd mit him fer dinner afterwards, n oso I promised my mom I'd b hme early..So @e end of e movie I ended up w/a neck cramp n a minor headache..haix..dats e price I had 2pay fer such a popular movie..DAT, n oso $15!! Shida was short on cash so Lava n I decided 2treat her half-half..lol..In e end I was e 1 dat ended up BROKE..lol..

@arnd 9lidat i took e bus 2mit up w/dear @900+ e central..I had Western Chicken Rice n baby had Malay Chicken Rice..lol..I guess we were both tryin 2prove which chicken rice was betta..lol..After dat we went n hang out fer awhile @my hse dwnstairs e playground..den it was hme-sweet-hme..*sighz..Such a long n bz day, bt it was realli fun(^@^).. Altho it was fri e 13th 2dae, bt evrythin went smoothly n I felt soo lucky 2hav soo mani close frenz arnd me..I'm realli thankful dat I gt 2kno all of u, esp my baby=))..

1 Month is such a short tym..

2009-03-08T20:57:00.005+08:00

2 think dat i was onli 16yrs and 9months old on 8.Feb.09, nw im 16yrs and 10months!lol..anthr 2mre mnths n I'll b a fully qualified 17yr old!!Hehe.. anywae 8th of Feb is oso a memoriable d8 fer me, cos I finally let my heart love some1 other den *u.. *U hav b'cme my past since I met him, & I'm nw soo happi 2b w/some1 who appreciates me fer me..n I think I'm fallin mre n mre in love w/him..wad strted out s a crush when I 1st met *u has turned into smth mre nw dat I'm w/him..Dun gt me wrong I hav n oways will love *u, bt my heart b'longs 2 some1 else oready..He has soo successfully captured my heart dat I actually had my doubts writin tis post, cos I duno hw he'll react when he reads e part abt *u..(to dat prsn: I love u 1 n onli ok, so dat gt any ideas ok..lol=))..It took me 2mnths 2gt over *u, nt reali completely yt(lets juz se deres still abt 5% of me dat still longs fer u), bt when I c/think of him I'm able 2 4gt e mere image of *u..Dats hw much I love him..I love him sooo much dat if he eva does leaves me out in e rain lik *u did, it wld prob take me 2YRS 2 4gt him, or mayb even longer..cos he is realli irreplaceable in my heart..Juz lik *u were b4 u chose 2leave me cryin on e streets alone.. However nw, I've put my 100% trust n love into tis guy soo much dat even if I tried, I cld'nt rmbr ur face even if i wanted 2..

*U might think dat tis prsn cnt measure up 2u in mani ways, n in many ways he might nt b just s gr8..bt in my heart he'll oways b MY no.1..He'll oways b e prsn who sheltered me during e rain n dried my tears when i was cryin..(altho mani of my dear dear frenz was dere 2help me out durin e difficult tymes 2..hehe..thnx 2all^^, love u guys loads 2=))He'll oways b my baby, dear, sweet-heart, darling, honey..etc..(& all e sweet names u cn think of)..So I'm NOT 1bit embarrassed or shy 2sae dat he IS my dearest boyfren: Aaron Tong Wen Yang..

Nt tring 2b BHB, bt: SRY 2disappoint those who r disappointed.. n 2those who think tis is sooo hilarious or funny dat we're 2getha / think dat we shldnt b 2getha 4mani reasons / juz wana judge our relationship 4fun..den i'll juz sae dat I seriously dun giv a damn..cos 1thins fer sure: evry1 hav e right 4freedom of speech (cummon,tis is e modern day society oready lehx), bt I 2, hav e freedom 2do s I please w/my life, cos its MINE..n if onli GOD permits den I wld listen, other den dat, if u wan2 gossip, go ahead..juz kno ur limit..

* -tis refers 2ppl/a prsn dat I dun wish 2name due 2private & confidencial reasons..unless those who r realli close w/me, u wld kno who/whom m i referin 2..other den dat, I won reveal e name of e prsn even if u asked me..U cn try, bt u'll nvr succeed..lol

Medical Chekup / Wrkin @ph

2009-02-26T22:50:00.001+08:00

2dae was e dae I went fer my medical checkup @ e Healthway Clinic opp. JP..Its nt cos I gt nth 2do den go med checkup, bt its part of my reg. of my course in e poly...Me n Ayu gt into e same course (NP,Nursin) so we decided 2go fer e checkup 2getha..We were suppose 2mit @8.30 am bt by 8.00am I was still aslp on my bed..I was sooo freakin tired n I didnt want 2 wake up sooo early..Bt Ayu kept spammin me w/msgs n calls till I gt up..She realli cn b my personal time keeper..lol..Anywae I knew I cldnt make it fer 8.30, bein a l8 queen I oways am, so I told her 2push bak e tym 2 9.00..she agreed n I went bak 2slp, meanin 2wake up @8.30 so dat I cn make it in tym..However I onli gt2 wake up @ 8.45..I muz've broken e land-speed record fer gettin ready, s i onli took 5mins 2change n brush my teeth..lol..End up I was still kinda l8, bt lucky she was 4givin..hehe =)..Fer e checkup itself e doc checked my eyes, ears, weight (luckily I didnt gain any xtra pounds, BMI was norm=)) & height (sadly, I was still e same height,didnt grow anymre=( )..Dey oso did a urine test n a blood test..Fer e blood test I was actually teasin Ayu s she was afraid of needles n was half expectin 2hear her scream frm e doc's rm ltr..Bt in e end I tink I w e 1 w/weak knees s I emerged frm e doc's consultation rm..damn, y muz i hav a phobia of blood? e needle pokin n e drawin of e blood was actually nth..juz dat when he strted 2wave e syringe abt after e drew e blood, seein e blood gt me nauseous..Anywae after dat we headed into JP B1A where al e clinics were 2take our x-rays..Didnt kno we had 2remove our clothes tho..I had 2put on tis green gown makin me look lik i'm goin fer an opperation..lol..

After e whole checkup me n Ayu headed 2ph, wanted 2c which manager was doin e morn shift (it was Randy) n coincidentally we "bumped" into Shu Yi N Katt @ e entrance..dat Shu Yi arhz, oso copy me wan2 go c deployment..hehe..den when inside PH we saw Lavademadonna, no idea wad was he doin in ph @such an early hr, bt i doubt its cos he wanted 2prac he's dance routines..lol..After which I followed Shu Yi n Katt 2eat breakfast n hav fun (Ayu didnt join us cos she wanted 2mit her fren)..

We @ 1st headed 2Crystal Jade on e 3rd lvl de, bt dey onli open @11.30am (so l8!), so we decided 2 walk arnd till den..After 4awhile we gt bored juz walkin arnd pointlessly in JP so we headed 2e arcade..FYI, I norm, dun lik 2go into e arcade de no matter wad de..bt I wanted 2c hw mani ppl dun hav a life tis early spendin deir tym n money in e arcade..I was kinda surprise dat dere WERE in fact ppl dere dat early ikn e morn, mostly ppl lik us?finish o's le?or drop outs? i hav no idea, n i dun wish 2 judge..movin on..Katt treat me n Shu Yi 2play e games..We played Datona 1st (Racin cars)..I cme in 2nd @ 1st, den 1st ltr..hahax..(Ofcourse mahx, look who u're talkin abt?hahax..) After dat we played e Basketball game..S Shu Yi's scared of any kind of balls (dun tink 2much..lol) onli me n Katt played n (ofcourse) I won again?lol..& dat was when my arm is hurt cos I juz gt my blood checkup n @ e same tym I had a neck cramp dat dae (didnt slp properly I guess)..lol..I'm tryin 2 b BHB ok..juz tot dat it was kool dat I had sooo much fun in an arcade, cos norm. I despise goin anywhere near e arcade in JP wads mre playin games in dere?..Finally, me n Katt played Haunted Hse 4, where she kiked my but tis tym, cos i kept dyin..lol..hello, I hav 2sacrifice myself so she cn win mahx..lol..jkin..Actualy we wanted 2 cont. 2 play de bt Shu Yi had 2leave cos her dad wan2 bring her 2 e CPF centre 2settle her skool fees fer poly..so end up left me n Katt, we had lunch 2getha den go do our nails 2getha..We talked abt stuff dats been happenin recently btwn our frenz n ourselves..It was cool, n @e same tym oso soo much fun!!^^ I ended up stayin in JP until 2++..after dat had 2 rush bak cos gt wrk..lol..

2009-02-26T12:22:00.001+08:00

Ok, so 2dae was pretty fun, bt @nite I was suppose 2 wrk @ph,6pm shift (n s usual i was l8, bt by alittle bit onli)..Cos of e sudden lack of blood n my neck cramp was strtin 2kik in givin me a major headache..Plus, I was e onli CSR dat dae..damn..lol..It was pretty bZ, cos dere was 1whole page full of ppl on e w8in list..hahax..dere was 2sets of table fer 6, 3sets of table fer 5 n 1set of table fer 7..Overall, I muz sae dat I handled e crowd pretty well..Xcept dat e bussers kinda hav alittle prob..Well fer 1, dere were 3bussers 2nite n 2of which were gurls (nadia n syeeqah) n 1 of which is a guy trainee (Chris).. U cnt xpect Nadia n Syeeqah 2b soo fast mahx, dey r still human beings after all dey nid help..n s fer Chris, he's new, he dosent realli gt e opportunity 2wrk durin e rush hr tymin in ph, s business isnt dat gd these past few days..bt i guess e manager fer dat nite didnt take dat into consideration..Now, I'm nt goin 2mention names or point fingers, bt i'd lik 2sae dat s a manager u shld lend a hand when ur staff needs u e most, however e manager fer dat nite didnt seem 2 wan2 lift a finger 2help..Ok, e situation was so: e nite was actually goin smooth, bt however when it was 8.45pm arnd dere, dere was a customer who nided a table fer 2, inside..n I juz nice had a table fer 2 inside so i asked Nadia 2help me clean n set dat table(cos e table was oready cleared n all dey nided 2do was clean n set it)..However, Nadia told me dat e manager asked her 2clean n set e outside tables..Den I told her dat I had oready cleared e w8in list so I dun realli nid e outside table..n e customer had requested an inside table..Bt Nadia juz shrugged n said dat e manager had asked her 2do e outside tables..I went up 2 e manager n asked wheather i cld "borrow" Nadia 4 a momment fer her 2clean n set dat inside table fer me (I wld hav done it myself bt by den my stand was strtin 2 gt crowded w/mre customers..), n guess wad..?Infront of all e ppl e manager shouted @me(I mean cnt he/she talk properly?)sayin:" Cnt u ask Chris or Syeeqah 2do it?! n Nadia, u tell dat Chris 2wrk faster cn..he wrkin v.slow u kno?!"

By den I cn swear 2god dat Nadia's face was sooo red i was almost able 2 c smoke smin out frm her ears..I cld oso c dat she was tryin her best oready yt e manager was soo unreasonable?haix.. Well, u oso cnt blame Chris mahx, cos he's juz new n he dun realli kno e wrkin lifestyle of PH esp durin rush-hrs lik 2dae..N since I was e onli CSR dat dae I cldnt realli lent a helpin hand even if i wanted 2.. Well, my bottom line is: e manager shld hav helped out in places dat nids help n shld b mre professional in e thins he/she does so dat ppl will look up 2 him/her mre..

Dun gt me wrong,I'm nt tryin 2tell e manager hw 2run his/her shift, bt I juz think dat if a manager knos hw 2do his/her job properly den mre ppl wld respect his/her decision..

Dwellin in Depression

2009-02-23T11:47:00.002+08:00

Hey all, sry i didnt upd8 my blog again..hav been realli bz thinkin abt wad 2write, bt all e thins dat I tot of puttin dwn realli outs me in my depression mode..Anywae, a quick run-thro:

Fer those who r concerned on hw my grandmothers doin, she's still in St. Luke's Hospital w8in fer rehabilitation so she cn b discharged..Bt other den dat she's copin fine w/her recovery. Tho she's recently developed rashes on her skin due 2her pampers..haix..gt 2bring her 2 a skin specialists on tue(24.Feb)..Like me she's sufferin frm depression, n hav been cryin cos she h8es 2c herself in e state dat she's in nw..1ce a happi prsn, she's nw sheddin tears lik deres no tml..Tis realli makes me tear 2..=( haix, god, plz bless her n giv her e strength 2stay on..*prays*

Fer me, I was posted 2 Ngee Ann Poly(NP) in e Health Sciences (Nursing) course..Nt in any of my choices, so I decided 2appeal 2Millinia Institute(MI), n after a few days I gt accepted in..Bt when I went in dere I felt lik I didnt b'long, so I told myelf tis is stoopid n after 1week I made up my mind n left, so I'm nw prepared 2b a nurse..Go ahead n let e teasing begin..lol..So wad if I have no passion in Nursin, cos dat I cn oways learn 2love it..I kno its disgustin n tideous @times..Bt 2think of all e ppl I'll b helpin in e future, it puts me in a betta mood..=)

In wrk, its juz e norm. nth much..oways doin CSR n wantin 2fall aslp @ e stand..realli, business is DAT bad!! Been wrkin on Mon, Tue, Wed, Thurs n Sat fer tis week n outta 5days i've been doin CSR fer 4days str8..lol..cnt blame me fer bein pretty (lol..thick skin*)..hmmm..other den dat life @ph hav been gr8 tho my mom hav been buggin me 2quit since I strted wrkin dere..No way m I gona quit n leave all e gr8 ppl i've known b'hind..mayb in e future when i've realli b'cme a nurse? bt fer nw, i still wan2 hang out w/my frenz..Cummon, I'm a teen after all..hehe..

& lastly, I've had rumours sayin dat I'm attached 2 a certain some1? lol..Well, I'll let u guys b'lieve who u wan2 b'lieve, bt comin frm my own mouth: I'm STILL SINGLE, bt NT AVAILABLE..lol.. I've recently gotten out of a serious relationship n I dun think I'm ready 2commit myself yt..w8in fer e rite guy 2move me again..lol..till den I'm juz happi bein single^^

Anywae I gtg, 2dae I'm goin fer a medical checkup fer poly, bein a nurse u gt2 b puurrrfect n ur immune system gt2 b strong, otherwise u might contract SARS fer all u kno..hahax..c u guys arnd..

SoZ all..

2009-01-16T15:33:00.004+08:00

Hey all, soz 4 nt upd8in my blog in such a long tym..sme ppl even saes its growin spider webs oready!!..lol..well..actually 2dae is kinda e onli dae dat i'm free..cos tis is e onli dae dat i've gt an off dae frm wrk (where i wrk frm mon-fri, 8.30am-5.30pm..yea, i guess i'm a robot), otherwise i wld b juz 2tired frm wrkin 2gt on9 (lol)..actually 2dae is e dateline in which i have to hand in my application form 4e poly courses..i hope dat god will b kind 2me n grant me tis miacle 2gt into e course i wan..dats all i ask fer..haix..*prays*..hmm..anywae i gtg gt ready fer wrk @ph oready(C! i guess I'm realli a robot..wrk, wrk, wrk onli..)cos i'm coverin joycelyn..n i promise dat i'll try 2find e tym 2 upd8 my blog REGULARLY..hehe

Release of O-levels results

2009-01-12T14:28:00.002+08:00

O.m.G!!! I wana CRY!! I juz received my O-level results and its HORRENDOUS!!!!! I think e cambridge markers must've marked e wrong script!!!!!! O.m.G!O.m.G!O.m.G!!!!!! sry, dats all i cn think right nw..I cnt b'lieve dat i gt L1R4-17..n dat is plus CCA!!!! argh!! I kno its nt DAT bad, bt its neither gd nor bad either!!If u wana sae dat is gd, its oso nt considered gd, considerin dat i cnt even gt into e courses dat I wan in a poly..bt u cnt sae its DAT bad either, b'cos i cld @least gt into all e courses in e polies, tho it juz depends wheather dey'll take me...HAIX!! I'm in MAJOR depressed mode!

*god gimme e strength and grant me a miracle dat i cn gt into e course dat i wan(creative writing for television and new media..a new course in SP), and i promise I'll do ANYTHIN!!..seriously!*

Grandmother in hospital

2009-01-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

Nw i realli gt hw ppl realli feel when dey receive a call frm e hospital goin..n mine went smth lik this.......
Me: Hello..
Hospital: Hi, i'm calling frm Changi General Hospital. R u in any way related to Mrs Ng Soh Tin?
Me: Um..yea..? I'm her grand-daughter..
Hospital: Oh..Um..is your mother or father @hme den?
Me: Um..no, bt wad is this pertaining to? n hw cn i help out??
Hospital: Oh, um..ur grandmother have been admitted into hospital. She is currently in critical condition due to stroke. You might want to give your parents a call so that they cn cme dwn n fill in e necessary form.
Me: (voice shakey) Ok, sure no prob. bt where is she nw?
Hospital: She is under-going an opperation nw, her frenz brought her in and r w8in outside of e opperating theatre. You just gt ur parents 2cme dwn ok?dun worry
Me: (thinkin: R u insane?! hw nt 2 wry!!!!!!!! u in-human or wad?! this is my grand-mother ur talkin abt? if she goes wad m i gona do????) Ok.Thanks.Bye.

A Million thins r runnin thro my head s my parents head dwn 2 e hospital n me ordered 2stay @hme 2 giv my uncle in bangkok a call 2let him kno of my grandmothers situation..I was soo nervous dat smth might happen 2her durin e oppertion as well as pissed dat my uncle wasnt answerin his phone..I men wad cld b mre importnt den this man?PICK UP UR DAMN PHONE!!.. After dat I kept buggin my mom n dad by callin dem evry few mins 2 ask wheather my grandmother was out of e operation theatre oready, n whaether she was ok..Luckily dere was no1 @hme hence it gave me a chance 2 cry alittle..This was e woman who was much closer 2me than my own mother eva was..she was oways dere 2bak me up when my parents scolded me..n she was everythin else in between..we were v.close (altho we're nt related by blood)..so u cld imagine hw shocked i was dat she was in e hospital..

Finally,when i gt news frm my parents my mom delievered e horrible news: SHE WAS HALF PARALYSED!! O.m.G! i realli duno wad 2do..if u say its bad news,its nt xactly bad news, cos @least she cld still talk n move on e other half..bt if i oso cnt consider tis is s a gd news..she's PARALYSED fer gods sakes!! Haix..Wad a wae 2 begin e new yr..=(

Happy 2009

2009-01-01T14:24:00.000+08:00

Still on bad bloods with my mother, wanted 2wish her a happy new yr juz nw n she asked me 2 f*uck off..WTH!!!!! I realli duno wad else 2sae 2her anymre..she's a waste of my time..Anywaes I dun wish 2talk anymre on tis topic..juz wana wish all my frenz HAPPY 2009! N GOD BLESS^^

X'mas Disaster

2008-12-25T13:15:00.000+08:00

I realli cn sae much on tis topic..all that's suppose 2 b said is in e title itself..Anywae in a nut-shell(i dun feel lik dwellin on e unhappy stuffs), I was locked of my hse by my own mom on x'mas eve itself n had 2 spend e nite @a fren's hse..It was soo embarrassing! On e morn of x'mas dae itself, I headed dwn 2 church. I saw my family dere n my dad brought me hme after church. It was a painfully quiet ride hme..when we reached hme my mom n me went str8 into our rms n didnt talk 2 each other @all..I know she waa juz lookin out fer me n stuff lidat, bt common im oready 16! wad does she wana w8 till im 30 b4 she gives me my freedom? Wads mre she called up my frenz 2harrass dem on where i was..common cnt she juz leave dem out of this? I realli think dat sh'e e most ridiculous prsn i've eva met!..~wadeva~

P.s. Thank you Ross, Tommy and Cindy(a.k.a papaya) for bein dere 4me when I needed u guys e most. & thnx fer bein so understandin of my situation..u guys r e BEST!!^^

West Coast Mid-night Fun^^

2008-12-12T03:55:00.005+08:00

Hw do I even begin 2 xplain e fun dat we had tis day^^. It strted out 2b juz hangin out @ MacDonalds, and havin supper w/Joycelyn, Tommy, Poy, Hafiz, Aaron & Lava. We talked & laughed & everythin, den Kai called & asked wheather we wld still b goin 2 eat ahlian bee hoon (@ 561 dere..i tink), so I said nope & dat if she wanted 2cme dwn 2hang out w/us @MAC, we'll b w8in fer her, so she said she was on her way. Bt den, @dat tym, MAC was abt 2close oready, so we had 2tink of an alt. location..So we strted 2head fer e taxi stand dere, while Poy went 2gt his car. We stood dere lik 4 10mins lidat I tink quarrelin n ponderin on: who's goin, who wana go, who cnt go, who dun wana go n where 2 go.. @ 1st I wanted 2head hme cos my curfew was 12.30 evrydae, bt Aaron convinced me 2go w/'em (dats cos he actually promised 2go hme w/me de..!! & if I dun go, he'll feel guilty & won go, even tho I INSIST..haix)

In the car, we still haven decided on a location yt, so Poy decided 2head dwn 2Kai's hse 2pick her up 1st. He rolled dwn e windows & techno music blasted thro e car, it was totally sooo kool in an irretatin kinda wae..lol.. @ Kai's hse dwnstairs we still haven decided on a location, n Poy was strtin 2gt restless, so Joycelyn n Lava said we suggested West Coast Park, cos dey wana climb e pyramid. So we w8ed fer Kai n den headed dwn dere. e ride dwn 2West Coast Park was AWESOME, altho dere was lik no space in e bak of e car, cos of Lava's stomach n his dancin, bt we had alota fun..We sang n Lava tried 2 dance w/e little space he had (which was NONE, he ended up squashin poor Joycelyn sittin @ e side), & Kai n him made alota jokes which was sooo sooo funny.

Finally, upon reachin West Coast Park, Lava wanted 2 change into his smelly slippers, so we had 2 w8 fer him. aaron tho was e onli 1 w/o slippers, so he was lik taggin along @ e rest of us headed fer e swing thin. (Nw fer e MOST funniest thin of dat night..) After we had all e fun racin up & dwn e swing thin, we decided 2head somewhere else, & dats when Lava noticed dat he LOST HIS SLIPPERS!!!!HAHAX!!!! We spent lik 15mins walkin bak n forth in e dark sandy playground tryin 2help him find his smelly slippers, which he cnt even rmbr where he dropped dem by e wae, bt in e end we cldnt find anythin.. (I wonder who wld wana steal a pair of smelly slippers..) Dat was when Poy said:"Lava, I cme here 2hav fun 1 ehx, nt 2cme n find slippers.."(n we all agreed). So in order nt 2make Poy & us mre naggy (=x) Lava tried runnin n re-runnin bak into e playground (he said its a gd wae 2retrace his steps), bt we still cldnt find anythin!!! So we decided 2giv up lookin n head dwn 2e pier, which was so BEAUTIFUL in e middle of e night, bt wld b even mre wonderful if u were w/ur loved 1.. We sat dere n enjoyed e breeze n e scenery fer awhile until Joycelyn n Lava decided 2race each other..Lava PLAYED CHEAT @1st, den half wae thro he let Joycelyn catch up 2win!! Which proved dat we gurls RULEZ!! HAHAX! Walkin 2wards sme benches, I challenged Lava 2a race, bt he said he cnt take it anymre..hahax.. (he looked sooo funny w/e tired face..) After dat, we walked thro e "forest" on e forest-walk-bridge.. (it was 'sooo scary') We sat in e clearin n talked fer while b4 headin out again cos Lava was afraid of spiders fallin onto his head frm e creepers hangin above. So we went out 2e benches dere 2 take sme pics (i'll gt it frm Poy n try 2 upload it ltr^^).. As usual Lava wanted 2hog e spotlight, n since we dun hav an apron w/us, we found out waes 2steal it away frm him..hahax.. Since Joycelyn was attaked by mosquitoes (i tink she hav lik abt 20+ bites), we decided 2gt away frm dat place n head on dwn 2e MAC dere..Bt on e wae dere we were attaked by a bunch of red ants instead!!! lol..All of us were jumpin up n dwn cos we were all wearin slippers, well every1 xcept Aaron..He juz stood dere n watched!!..So we faster jumped away frm dere slappin our legs s we escaped..Dats when Aaron felt bites in his shoe n had 2take it off..hahax..even mre troublesome..hahax..

Escaping bak into civilisation, we walked into e MAC dere 2use e toilets n 2buy drinks, cos Lava was thirsty frm all e talkin..Dats when we sat @e MaCafe dere n chatted till it was 3, askin IQ questions n testin 1anthrs maths..I strted 2panic cos it was wae over my curfew tym or any other tym dat I hav been out until, so nturally, I was v.tired.. Bt I didnt wana b a party spoiler, bt finally @3.10, I wrked up e courage 2ask Poy wheather we cld leave, cos I was afraid of e wrath of my parents.. I felt realli bad 2spoilt e fun dey were havin..:( So Poy rushed bak fer me (thnx^^) droppin off Joycelyn, den Lava, followed by Kai den me..When I reached my hse door I was oready tremblin w/cold sweat s I slide e key into e lock..Boy, was I in deep trouble..Bt god has it dat my mom didnt notice me sneakin in @such a l8 hour..(thnx GOD!!, n thnx all of u who hav Prayed fer me..hahax) I reached hme juz s e clock struck 4am in my livin rm!! It was realli a damn close call..I'm still recoverin frm my nite adventure s tis is e most eva darin n fun thin i've eva pulled in my entire life..SERIOUSLY!! dats hw much of a gd kid I am..:)

Well, i guess its best i end of nw, cos I think tis is lik e longest post I've eva written up till nw.. Bt b4 I go, I wld realli lik 2sae 2those dat were w/me dat nite: Thnx fer e most fun nite, n thnx fer all e concern shown 2me, when I was in e bak of e car worried sick of my fate.. I'm sooo super sry 2end dat nite lidat..I promise dat we wld hang out again lidat, n nt w/me lookin lik sme1 juz died ok?^^

1st wish accomplished

2008-12-10T22:36:00.005+08:00

Wohoo..2dae I gt 2rebond my hair..Bt it looks ooogly :( ,I think..Haix..I was supposed 2 go w/a fren 1, bt she last min gt other plans so I ended up goin on my own..So nw I juz look wierd I guess..(Haix..she was supposed 2b my image consultant!!! :(( )..Bt anywaes its juz e beginnin mayb I cn make e look wrk fer me..lol..
Bt e dwn side of it all is dat:

I'm NW BROKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:((((((((

I wanted 2head over 2 a shop n purchase a pair of coloured contacts bt since both my ees hav diff degrees it was wae EX..Haix, so I ended up walkin hme w/my new hair-cut dats all..lol..hw pathetic am I..Guess I gt2 strt grindin fer money..Frm 2dae onwards I guess i'd b wrkin fullshifts all e wae..

HAIX!!

2008-12-09T01:28:00.002+08:00

Haix..I duno where 2 begin fer 2dae. 1) I asked 2 wrk full-shift & as dat sae was double pay, so I decided 2hav a head strt n write my roster b4 han, on e prev. week's Mon. Bt after I went 2 check on my roster on Sun (7.Dec), I saw dat i was wrkin frm 4-10! Wad happened 2 1st cme 1st serve? I actually had wae mre impt plans, bt i decided 2 sacrifice dat 2 wrk on dat dae, plus I had wrote it wae b4 hand, so I was v. pissed n had actually planed on nt cmin oready, n instead go on w/my other plans. Howeva, in e end, I didnt wan2 disapoint my co-workers, so I turned up fer wrk.

2) I was alittle dreadin 2 cme 4wrk, cos my ex was cmin 2wrk dat dae 2, n since it was our 1st dae talkin or even bein dat close 2 1 anthr after e break up, I was worried dat it wld b awkward. It actually was awkward..As he onli ended up sayin hi-&-bye 2 me onli..It was as tho he didnt even wan anythin 2 do w/me @all..I was thoroughly upset, so I ltr went 2 MAC w/a bunch of cool frenz n dey cheered me up..Thnx Joycelyn, Yi Qin, Mel, Aaron & Hafiz^^.. Bt dats nt b4 I returned him his jacket(awww..My insides realli felt lik jelly)..Ltr, he msged me apologisin 4nt bein able 2face up 2me yt, so I said its ok......(& I realli am, bt hw much mre of tis pretentious face muz I put up w/..its realli killin me inside!)

3) Bt all those drama ytrdae was still nt enuf, tis Eddie Duane, msged me durin wrk n gt me caught by my RGM!! IDIOT! Lucky I still cn gt my hp bak after wrk, if nt I seriously wld nt eva 4giv him!!!!!!

So dats all e drama 4tis nite, i nid 2 slp!! Tml I hav 2 acc. my fren fer her trainin in PH..hope she dosent plan on quittin mid-wae..xxxxxfingers crossedxxxxx

P.s: Happy Birthday grandma,I kno u won b able 2read it here, bt I juz wana let e whole world kno hw gr8 a prsn u r..hope u lead a happy life no matter wad^^

Happy 13th!!

2008-12-04T23:40:00.006+08:00

2dae was my lil'sis's burfdae!! Finally she's 13!(and able 2watch PG13 shows xp) Tho I dun think dat this is her best burfdae..lol..*sad* She says she's realli lookin 4ward 2 her sweet16 instead, cos she feels dat it wld b even mre special..well, I hope I'd b able 2 make her wish cme true dat yr.. In any case, we nt onli brought 2 ToriQ in JP n had her fav Bento Set A(lol, she says dat it was enuf 2 make her dae even if her burfdae strtd off on e wrong foot..awww..dats so sweet..), bt we oso bought her a yummy burfdae cake(Black Forest^^) which she enjoyed 2.. Haix..hw I wish I cld hav made tis day mre special fer her..well, its all over oready n i nid 2go 2 bed oready..nitez!

Back,and better den eva..=]

2008-12-03T23:35:00.005+08:00

Woah! Its been 2yrs oready? Hahax, hw tym flies^^.. It onli occured 2me 2gt my blog out frm e cobwebs ytrdae when all my frenz were buggin me 2tag dem on deir blogs..hw 2 when i dun hav 1?lol.. Anywae, I decided dat it was tym 2 strt upd8in my blog(plus I promised Lava I wld keep in touch w/him when he's in NS ^^). Bt I onli gt 2 gt it done 2dae cos I cldnt find an appropriate skin, and even if I did dere was oways some complications(btw, thnx Tommy fer puttin in effort 2 help me out^^)

In tis 2yrs I strtin wrkin in JP Pizza Hut and gt 2meet lots of kool ppl and oso a great guy, tho we're nt 2gether oready, bt we'll still b bestest of frenz^^.. Oso tis yr(2008) is my O-levels year, and I've been bZ preparin myself fer e final battle.. However altho e papers oready over, yt I'm still wried abt e results..My worst night-mare is I cnt even go anywhere ;(, I hope dats nt e case tho..xxxxxfingers crossedxxxxx.. I hope 2 gt into a JC or @least a poly. JC, cos i oready miz havin hmwrk 2do n I miz my 4E2!!! hahaZ..(won 4get e w0nderful tymes we shared(gd or bad=]))

So while in e midst of w8in fer my results I've been spendin my tym @ JP Pizza Hut, wrkin my ass off so dat I cn gt my hair re-bonded again and 2 gt new contacts (considerin colours: baby aqua & grey)..Hahax.. 2dae I had 2 wrk @PH again frm 12-5, and as usual its sooo borin, bt wad 2do? @least it helps me pass tym n earn money.. b'sides tis papaya milk (a.k.a Cindy..lol) acc. me after shift n we talked non-stop (fun, i guess..lol).. Anywae, I think dats all I hav 2 type abt 2dae, will b bloggin mre often, i promise ( =x ), so will upd8 on any new news in my life^^, bt fer nw i gtg slp ler..