Wednesday, March 18, 2009
I
knew u
lied 2 me..
Do u think dat I'd b'lieve u over my own FREN whom I've known fer almost 10yrs oready?! n who's oso incapable of lies w/o tellin me e whole truth in e end..I seriously duno wad 2sae 2u anymre..I didnt tot dat u'd b s dispicable s 2 resort 2
LYING! I dun think I'd wan2 b'lieve u eva again! If u DARED 2LIE 2me, I wonder who else hav u LIED 2..!I kno dat ppl hav reasons fer lying in life, n I wonder wad's urs..bt up till nw I cnt think of any reasons y u'd so such a thing when u kno I hav e EVDENCE w/me..I'm w8in fer sme xplaination if ur willin 2offer any..Bt I doubt dat U wld even xplain urself, cos 2u, u oways think u're e rite 1..so I juz realli realli hope dat u cn pls, pls..proof me wrong..
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11:44 PM
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Tuesday, March 17, 2009
O.m.G! anthr horrible dae fer me (n oso e same fer certain ppl s well??)..I was seriously soo pissed abt tis prsn (nt gona mention names nor wad e prsn has actually done..) again..he/she hav realli done it tis tym! Nt onli did he/she showed his/her ULTIMATE BOSSINESS, bt he/she oso SCOLDED my fren (who I FEEL wasnt in e wrong) n made her AFRAID 2talk 2me again! I duno wheather dat was e intention, bt I felt dat it was!! If he/she dosent wan me 2talk, juz sae lahx!! y e hell cn he/she talk 2 his/her fren while I CNT!! Is dat xcuse cos I HAVE NT completed my job? Well if dats so, den lemme sae tis:" Its cos u KEEP pushin mre n mre wrk into my hands!! Bossing me 2complete tis n dat while U urslef run off 2do wadeva u wish n ACT BZ!!" Well i onli hav 1msg 2u: "F* off man!" Oh, I'm sry I dun think I shld add in e 'man' in e last part cos I dun think ur even a HUMAN BEING! Ur juz bein an A**-H*le..who dun hav control over ur own life n is juz wishin 2control evry1 else's!!!!!!
I kno I shldnt b soo mean, n sae all those thins, bt well nw dat u kno my perception of u I hope u gt ur priorities str8 cos frm nw on my ans 2all ur qns n requests will b a plain n str8: 'NO!'..n e onli othertymes dat I wun sae dat wrd is cos I HAV 2sae yes or I juz dun wish 2c u crash n burn..So dun take me bein nice s me bein a prsn dat u cn push-over..Dats wad u wan isnt it? Fer ppl 2 F* u up in ur face rite? 4ppl 2speak up deir minds rite 2ur face rite? Well I'm nt soo mean s 2do dat, cos I dun wish 2hear u defendin ur bloody-self anymre, nor do I wish 2hear u gimme all e pathetic reasons y u wun change ur STINKIN ATTITUDE.. Cos here's a little tip fer U: "altho u mayb successful in wadeva u do nw(due 2all ur xperience n evrythin)..bt if u go on lidat in life u wun go far.."
If u wish 2take my feelins n wadeva i sae s bullsh*t den go ahead..Cos u oways do anywae rite? 2u onli SELECTED ppl in ur life r impt..So go ahead n cont. livin ur life e wae u do nw I juz wan2 c hw far den u'll strt 2sink..
p.s.I'm NT bein MEAN here, I'm juz speakin out my mind (w/o any filters)..juz lik u wanted me 2..
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11:13 PM
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Monday, March 16, 2009
Finally its skool holidays le!!^^ I'm soo happi cos my baby dear oso holiday le, so dat means we cn hang out mre b4 my skool strts 2 in April..lol..Um..bt bad news is baby sae 2me dat he wans 2wrk mre durin tis holii, cos he's runnin low on cash..I think it has smth 2do w/me..lol..ooopss..sry baby fer spendin ur money..hehe..
Baby oso told me dat he wan2 do alota thins w/me durin tis holii..He sae he wan2 go
Sci Centre, Discovery Centre, Bird Park, Zoo, Sentosa, Dwn-town East, Wild-wild-wet..etc..Dats y he sae he wan2 go wrk gt e money den we cn go enjoy 2getha..hahax.."
So much 2do, So little tym"..lol..
Anywae fer 2dae I woke damn early n folo-ed my daddy 2pay my skool fees..e amount we initaially had 2pay was abt
$1000++/-.. so me n my dad went 2e CPF board in JE 2reg fer e financial assistance scheme, so ma fan lohx..Bt @least nw my dad onli nids 2fork out
$170/-.. *Phew..cos I cnt bear 2c my b'loved daddy payin soo much fer my fees, its nt s tho we're rich, so yea ^^..
After dat dad wanted 2cook a special dinner (my dad's e best cook in e world..lol..) fer evry1, so I acc him 2Jp Fairprice Xtra..Dats where I 'bumped' into Shu Yi..She was juz cmin bak frm SP n
she juz bought her laptop..I felt envious @dat tym lohx..Haix, hw i wish i cld gt a new 1..Bt my course didnt require me 2use 1..instead I'm supposed 2purchase a
PDA frm skool, so currently I'm savin my pays fer dat..hehe..Tho I muz sae dat a
PDA is way cheaper den a laptop..lol..
After e groceries shoppin i helped dad carry all e stuffs hme den left him 2e preperations n went 2mit baby @900+ e central dere..I had 2mit baby cos he juz finished his SC mitin fer e dae (he strted early in e morn n e mitin onli ended @4pm lidat..e poor thing..), n he didnt even had his lunch!! So I had 2acc baby 2make sure he ate smth..He cn tell me dat he's hungry bt he refuse 2go n eat, in fear of ruinin his appitite fer dinner..-.-..Bt in e end we still ate @KFC..n lik oways, baby lik 2'force-feed' me when I'm nt hungry..so we ended up sharin a meal n tis tym it was my turn 2force feed baby e shrooms-burger n my chicken..cos he refused 2eat anythin else other den e reg. coleslaw he gt..-.-..lol.. In e end, when I went hme I was 2full 2eat any of dad's cookin =((.. n he looked rather sad oso..haix..(all baby's fault =p)..so I promised dat I'll eat evrythin tml..Which I did=))
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12:00 AM
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Saturday, March 14, 2009
It is realli a shocker fer me dat
Fri e 13th cld go by soo smoothly, bt on e foloin day I had 2encounter such an unfortunate event..
I'm soo pissed dat I even let such a prsn n situaton gt2 my head!! S usual, I dun wan2 point fingers nor do I wan2 mention names..Bt i realli wish 2share tis..I kno I'm nt e type of prsn dat blows up easily, nor m I e type of prsn who speaks 100% of my mind..cos I kno dat if I do, dat'll b juz plain rude of me(trust me, u wldnt wan me 2b DAT prsn)..n 2dae was juz 1of e xception, mayb cos I was PMSin 2dae (n dats true), bt I b'lieve dat prsn oso has hav 2kno dat he/she cnt juz push evry1/any1 arnd juz cos he/she liks it! If u wan me 2do anythin I'm oways game fer it, dats me..Bt u oso gotta kno ur limits!.. I kno we're all humans here n no1's perfect n dat inclds me..So if I cn b soo understandin, y cnt u?!
When u make a mistake stop tryin 2cover it up by makin me take e fall fer u..U kno I dun wrk well under fire, so y do u still create these situations fer me?Do u wish fer me 2suffer? I kno I'm nt s professional nor do I hav any xperience 2bak me up in tis phase of life, so
GUIDE me instead of
BOSSING me arnd..U might think tis is e way 2go abt doin thins in tis industry, bt I'm tellin u dat NO1 i kno liks e way u do thins..esp e
BOSSY part..I cnt speak completely fer evry1, bt I cn say dat frankly,
I DUN LIK IT! who in e rite mind wld lik 2b talked 2in tis kinda manner?..wad'u think I m??? ur employee?! ur servants?!.. Well
UR WRONG!! cos here's a news flash fer ya:"
I DUN WRK FER U!!" Even my own boss dun talk 2me or treat me e wae u do..evern if he does he has MRE rite den u eva will hav..So wake up n smell e 1st stench of reality here, cos u're seriously bein nth bt a B!TCH in my eyes..U might lik it bt i dun..So UNLESS u cn talk 2me properly n nt sme dog u THINK u own, den cme talk 2me..Otherwise juz F* off, cos even tho I might hav my mother's temp (I cnt b'lieve U even hav e GUTS 2sae such an insultin thin), bt @least I'm nt an A** lik
U!!
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12:45 PM
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Friday, March 13, 2009
Hmmm..2dae was nth much on my agenda..Juz kinda went JP w/Shu Yi early in e morn fer sme shoppin..Yea,we went 2pay Shu Yi's skool fees @e Standard Charted Bank sme where arnd Taman Jurong dere..den headed 2 JP fer sme shoppin in prep. when skool re-opens in April..We strted out shoe shoppin,den went fer brunch @Delifrance..norm, Delifrance is v.ex, bt since dey were currently havin tis offer on deir meals Shu Yi suggested 2dine in dere..Hmmm..e food is nt bad, I went fer e Black Pepper Steak n Shu Yi opted fer e Fish..Overall e service is comparable w/ph tho.. After brunch me n Shu Yi continued w/our shoppin n oso went fer alittle pamperin session @
Herb De Orient in JP2..I went fer e eyebrow shappin session,while Shu Yi went n gt a pedicure (She chose tis super stricking pink, which ended up makin her feet look realli spunky..lol..sooo unlike her..) In total, I onli managed 2gt myself a realli nice pair of ballet flats..while Shu Yi, spent her money on a pair of shoes n a bunch of clothes..hahax..She's realli a shopp-a-holic..Compared w/her, I onli spent
$20 on shoppin itself,n
$10 on food..while she spent a whoppin
$50 on her stuffs (n tis is
xcludin her meal!!)
After dat (since Shu Yi had 2head hme early) I met up w/baby dear..He had juz finish his SC mitin n plus he nvr had lunch yt, so I had 2mit up w/him 2make sure he eat..headed dwn 2ph 4dear's lunch tym..He's soo funny de, wheneva he's hungry,he wun eat..Instead, he'll keep feedin me de..its s tho e food goin into my mouth will satisfy
HIS hunger..lol..Since I oready had my lunch I wasnt dat hungry,bt dear, oways havin e same funny habit, ordered me sme stuffs 2eat..haix..I was s full s hell..while we were eatin, Lava reminded of our movie d8 ltr dat nite..(its nt wad u think ok..we were goin out s frenz, n plus its w/a grp of frenz..^^) After dear's lunch we walked abt JP fer awhile n finalised my shoppin by gttin tis realli kool shirt which was blue in colour (I mentioned e colour cos I dun realli own any
blue shirt, xcept fer my sec skool house tee..lol)
Went hme fer awhile 2finish up my chores den dressed up n headed 2jp 2mit Lava n Shida, who was dinnin in @ph..den we went 2catch:
Dragonball Evolution..e show was amazin if nt fer e fact dat e theatre was soo packed dat we ended up havin 2seat 3rd row frm e screen..We wld've caught e ltr show, bt i promised dear dat I'd mit him fer dinner afterwards, n oso I promised my mom I'd b hme early..So @e end of e movie I ended up w/a neck cramp n a minor headache..haix..dats e price I had 2pay fer such a popular movie..DAT, n oso
$15!! Shida was short on cash so Lava n I decided 2treat her half-half..lol..In e end I was e 1 dat ended up
BROKE..lol..
@arnd 9lidat i took e bus 2mit up w/dear @900+ e central..I had
Western Chicken Rice n baby had
Malay Chicken Rice..lol..I guess we were both tryin 2prove which chicken rice was betta..lol..After dat we went n hang out fer awhile @my hse dwnstairs e playground..den it was hme-sweet-hme..*sighz..Such a long n bz day, bt it was realli fun(^@^).. Altho it was
fri e 13th 2dae, bt evrythin went smoothly n I felt soo lucky 2hav soo mani close frenz arnd me..I'm realli thankful dat I gt 2kno all of u, esp my baby=))..
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9:51 PM
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Sunday, March 8, 2009
2 think dat i was onli 16yrs and 9months old on
8.Feb.09, nw im 16yrs and 10months!lol..anthr 2mre mnths n I'll b a fully qualified 17yr old!!Hehe.. anywae 8th of Feb is oso a memoriable d8 fer me, cos I finally let my heart love some1 other den
*u..
*U hav b'cme my past since I met him, & I'm nw soo happi 2b w/some1 who appreciates me fer me..n I think I'm fallin mre n mre in love w/him..wad strted out s a crush when I 1st met
*u has turned into smth mre nw dat I'm w/him..Dun gt me wrong I hav n oways will love
*u, bt my heart b'longs 2 some1 else oready..He has soo successfully captured my heart dat I actually had my doubts writin tis post, cos I duno hw he'll react when he reads e part abt
*u..(to dat prsn: I love u 1 n onli ok, so dat gt any ideas ok..lol=))..It took me 2mnths 2gt over
*u, nt reali completely yt(lets juz se deres still abt 5% of me dat still longs fer u), bt when I c/think of him I'm able 2 4gt e mere image of
*u..Dats hw much I love him..I love him sooo much dat if he eva does leaves me out in e rain lik
*u did, it wld prob take me 2YRS 2 4gt him, or mayb even longer..cos he is realli irreplaceable in my heart..Juz lik
*u were b4 u chose 2leave me cryin on e streets
alone.. However nw, I've put my 100% trust n love into tis guy soo much dat even if I tried, I cld'nt rmbr ur face even if i wanted 2..*U might think dat tis prsn cnt measure up 2u in mani ways, n in many ways he might nt b just s gr8..bt in my heart he'll oways b MY no.1..He'll oways b e prsn who sheltered me during e rain n dried my tears when i was cryin..(altho mani of my dear dear frenz was dere 2help me out durin e difficult tymes 2..hehe..thnx 2all^^, love u guys loads 2=))He'll oways b my baby, dear, sweet-heart, darling, honey..etc..(& all e sweet names u cn think of)..So I'm NOT 1bit embarrassed or shy 2sae dat he
IS my dearest boyfren:
Aaron Tong Wen Yang..Nt tring 2b BHB, bt: SRY 2disappoint those who r disappointed.. n 2those who think tis is sooo hilarious or funny dat we're 2getha / think dat we shldnt b 2getha 4mani reasons / juz wana judge our relationship 4fun..den i'll juz sae dat I seriously dun giv a damn..cos 1thins fer sure: evry1 hav e right 4freedom of speech (cummon,tis is e modern day society oready lehx), bt I 2, hav e freedom 2do s I please w/my life, cos its MINE..n if onli GOD permits den I wld listen, other den dat, if u wan2 gossip, go ahead..juz kno ur limit..* -tis refers 2ppl/a prsn dat I dun wish 2name due 2private & confidencial reasons..unless those who r realli close w/me, u wld kno who/whom m i referin 2..other den dat, I won reveal e name of e prsn even if u asked me..U cn try, bt u'll nvr succeed..lol
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8:57 PM
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Thursday, February 26, 2009
2dae was e dae I went fer my medical checkup @ e Healthway Clinic opp. JP..Its nt cos I gt nth 2do den go med checkup, bt its part of my reg. of my course in e poly...Me n Ayu gt into e same course (NP,Nursin) so we decided 2go fer e checkup 2getha..We were suppose 2mit @8.30 am bt by 8.00am I was still aslp on my bed..I was sooo freakin tired n I didnt want 2 wake up sooo early..Bt Ayu kept spammin me w/msgs n calls till I gt up..She realli cn b my personal time keeper..lol..Anywae I knew I cldnt make it fer 8.30, bein a l8 queen I oways am, so I told her 2push bak e tym 2 9.00..she agreed n I went bak 2slp, meanin 2wake up @8.30 so dat I cn make it in tym..However I onli gt2 wake up @ 8.45..I muz've broken e land-speed record fer gettin ready, s i onli took
5mins 2change n brush my teeth..lol..End up I was still kinda l8, bt lucky she was 4givin..hehe =)..Fer e checkup itself e doc checked my eyes, ears, weight (luckily I didnt gain any xtra pounds, BMI was norm=)) & height (sadly, I was still e same height,didnt grow anymre=( )..Dey oso did a urine test n a blood test..Fer e blood test I was actually teasin Ayu s she was afraid of needles n was half expectin 2hear her scream frm e doc's rm ltr..Bt in e end I tink I w e 1 w/weak knees s I emerged frm e doc's consultation rm..damn, y muz i hav a phobia of blood? e needle pokin n e drawin of e blood was actually nth..juz dat when he strted 2wave e syringe abt after e drew e blood, seein e blood gt me nauseous..Anywae after dat we headed into JP B1A where al e clinics were 2take our x-rays..Didnt kno we had 2remove our clothes tho..I had 2put on tis green gown makin me look lik i'm goin fer an opperation..lol..
After e whole checkup me n Ayu headed 2ph, wanted 2c which manager was doin e morn shift (it was Randy) n coincidentally we "bumped" into Shu Yi N Katt @ e entrance..dat Shu Yi arhz, oso copy me wan2 go c deployment..hehe..den when inside PH we saw Lavademadonna, no idea wad was he doin in ph @such an early hr, bt i doubt its cos he wanted 2prac he's dance routines..lol..After which I followed Shu Yi n Katt 2eat breakfast n hav fun (Ayu didnt join us cos she wanted 2mit her fren)..
We @ 1st headed 2Crystal Jade on e 3rd lvl de, bt dey onli open @11.30am (so l8!), so we decided 2 walk arnd till den..After 4awhile we gt bored juz walkin arnd pointlessly in JP so we headed 2e arcade..FYI, I norm, dun lik 2go into e arcade de no matter wad de..bt I wanted 2c hw mani ppl dun hav a life tis early spendin deir tym n money in e arcade..I was kinda surprise dat dere WERE in fact ppl dere dat early ikn e morn, mostly ppl lik us?finish o's le?or drop outs? i hav no idea, n i dun wish 2 judge..movin on..Katt treat me n Shu Yi 2play e games..We played Datona 1st (Racin cars)..I cme in 2nd @ 1st, den 1st ltr..hahax..(Ofcourse mahx, look who u're talkin abt?hahax..) After dat we played e Basketball game..S Shu Yi's scared of any kind of balls (dun tink 2much..lol) onli me n Katt played n (ofcourse) I won again?lol..& dat was when my arm is hurt cos I juz gt my blood checkup n @ e same tym I had a neck cramp dat dae (didnt slp properly I guess)..lol..I'm tryin 2 b BHB ok..juz tot dat it was kool dat I had sooo much fun in an arcade, cos norm. I despise goin anywhere near e arcade in JP wads mre playin games in dere?..Finally, me n Katt played Haunted Hse 4, where she kiked my but tis tym, cos i kept dyin..lol..hello, I hav 2sacrifice myself so she cn win mahx..lol..jkin..Actualy we wanted 2 cont. 2 play de bt Shu Yi had 2leave cos her dad wan2 bring her 2 e CPF centre 2settle her skool fees fer poly..so end up left me n Katt, we had lunch 2getha den go do our nails 2getha..We talked abt stuff dats been happenin recently btwn our frenz n ourselves..It was cool, n @e same tym oso soo much fun!!^^ I ended up stayin in JP until 2++..after dat had 2 rush bak cos gt wrk..lol..
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10:50 PM
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